A Vision of an Angel that Changed Me Forever

My life has taken a lot of turns lately, but moving to Tofino has definitely been the most epic one. 

If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you’ll know that while in Hawaii in March, I broke up with my boyfriend and decided to move to Vancouver Island, but I didn’t know exactly where I wanted to move to. 

On May 5th, I packed up my car with all of my belongings, and headed west, only knowing that I was going to make Kelowna and Victoria pit stops on the quest through BC. 

On September 29th, I finally found my spot and moved into a beautiful new house with 2 of the most awesome girls I could ever ask for. 

The time in between those 2 dates, I spent nomading: camping, staying with friends + family, sometimes sleeping in my car, constantly unaware of what my next move would be, constantly changing my mind, trying to follow my heart, even though I was unsure of what it was saying. 

Finally the storm subsided, prayers manifested, and I’ve been able to relax. I’m now joyfully settling into my new home. I am absolutely IN LOVE with this place, and since being in Tofino, I’ve already had some really interesting experiences. 

The other night, I had a dream. 

In it, I was talking to my ex-boyfriend (which totally needs a new title, he is my soul friend through and through) and felt a deep and all encompassing love in my body. He was asking if I wanted to be with him, and though it felt like a part of me was dying, my truth formed the words ‘No’. 

As they came out of my mouth, it felt like one of the most tragic things I ever had to do, knowing that I was deeply in love with this being, but I had to say no.

There was someone in the other room who I wanted to be with instead. Interestingly enough, I felt like the soul I was speaking to in the dream wasn’t actually my ex-boyfriend, it was someone from a past life I had known long ago - I was experiencing a recall.  

The emotions in this dream were insane. They were more than emotions. They were deep spiritual longings. Upon waking, I was kind of torn up. From the depths, I decided to do a chakra clearing meditation while I was laying down, still between the worlds. 

Upon finishing the meditation, I kept going. I asked that the memories from the dream be cleared. 

Suddenly, an intense amount of emotional pain surged through me and out of my heart. The release was uncontrollable, and I started wailing. Not crying, wailing. I couldn’t even make any noise I was crying so hard. So much pain was in my body as I remembered this soul I said no to. It’s indescribable the amount of emotion that was present. 

As it was leaving, I had a vision that lasted as split second, yet imprinted in my mind with virility. An angel, in the form of a large diamond about 5 feet above my heart appeared. Light shone out of it, and it’s presence was both powerful and peaceful. As this light being was above me, the memory and the emotions shot out of my heart, up into the angel’s diamond. I knew instantly it was taking this from me. Forever healed. Finally ready to come up and out of my system. Finally ready to come home.

And then it was over. Adrenaline still pumped through my veins, but I felt a calm and nurturing energy come over me. 

These type of experiences aren’t necessarily unusual for me, yet this particular experience was unique. Every year that I continue on the spiritual path, I have more and more magical experiences. I see more - ex. angels & auras. I feel more - both pain & pleasure. I understand more and yet I embrace that life is really just an all encompassing mystery. 

If you’re on this path, and sometimes you question it, like we all do from time to time, all I can say to you is: keep going.

This journey is real, magic is alive, and although it seems that sometimes it only presents itself in certain moments, it is with us everyday. 

It is just a matter of when we’re ready for it. 

Just a reminder - today is the last day to sign up for the epic spiritual program that is Flower Child. 

What I just described to you above is an experience associated with the ‘Priestess’. This archetype and very real historical title will be discussed in our New Moon call with Vanessa Codorniu. If you’re really intrigued with this path and feel connected to the mysticism of the priestess, I highly suggest you sign up. Though our greatest path is inward, we would be nowhere without teachers that have come before us to share their wealth of experience. We need each other. I love you. 

xo Beth